...and it ain't purdy!!
Today I am starting my diet. I am hoping to lose about 25 pounds prior to having gastric bypass. I stepped on the new scale I bought yesterday AND...265.2. I am so disappointed and ashamed, I can't believe I let it get this bad! BUT, I need to put my head up and realize this is the starting point, the starting gun is about to go off and I need to lace up my running shoes and get prepared for one of the biggest races of my life, the race to better health. I am scared and excited and really, really ready to do this.
Despite my excitement about this new lifestyle and my journey toward health, I am feeling like quite the bitch today, yes I am being bitchy, no doubt about that. I am snapping at my family and just feel crabby. I started cutting back on my caffeine last week and I think that might be part of it, or maybe subconsciously I know I am saying goodbye to my old friend food and the relationship I used to have with it. I had a killer headache yesterday from caffeine withdrawal so I did have some diet coke yesterday, so far today no caffeine and no headache so that's good. I have to nap this afternoon because I work a 12 hour night shift tonight and I will have some caffeine tonight to make it through the night. I hate working night shift!
I just want to say a quick bit about green smoothies. If you have never had one you have to try one!! I made one for breakfast this morning and it had oranges, peaches, kiwi, banana, coconut milk, and spinach. It is really good and you can't even taste the spinach. Even my kids will drink it. It looks terrible but tastes good!! I know I can't have all that fruit after surgery but for now I will use it to boost my health and lose some weight.
Officially my weight ins are going to be Thursday mornings but I wanted this starting weight and my measurements to be documented. I will be weighing in again on Thursday.
OK ...off to sleep I go!
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