Thursday weigh in and damn you carbs!!

I am officially done with all of my pre-op appointments!!  FINALLY!  Now I am just waiting on the final insurance approval and I can breathe a sigh of relief.  18 days to go!  I can't even believe how fast it is coming up!!  It seemed like it was so far off and now it is almost here.  I have so many emotions right now,  excited, nervous, happy, scared, but mostly just ready to get on with this and get on with my new healthy life!  I keep thinking about things in my life and comparing what I see now versus next year at this time.  For instance the swimming suits are out in the stores and I think about how next year at this time I will be thinner and able to buy a new swimming suit in a smaller size.  Things like that help me put it in perspective.

One thing I did find out at my pre-op appointment with my surgeon is that he leaves the incision that he passes the stapler through, open, and it needs to be packed and have dressing changes until it heals.  It is to prevent infection.  I told my husband about wound packing and he said it made his knees feel weak just thinking about it.  I am a nurse so I am fine with that kind of thing but my husband is pretty squeemish.  Hopefully it will be in an area I can reach and see to do it myself, if not either he is going to have to suck it up and do it or I will have to see if my mom will come over to do it.  I'll be sure to post pictures when I get that far.

My weigh in this week showed a gain and that is no surprise.  I haven't been on an all out eating frenzy by any means, but I did have my potato soup and bread with butter from Panera yesterday and I have been having more carbs than usual this week.  I am up 2 pounds this week.  On Monday I start my 2 week liquid diet.  I will be interested to see how much weight I lose while I am doing it.  I really want to be at or under 240# on the day of surgery so that means I have to lose around 12#.  If I go into the hospital at 240# I will have a personal goal of losing 90#.  I would be happy to get to 150# and maintain there, if I lose more, great, but 150# is the goal.  I think I can do it, the liquid diet only gives me 800-900 calories per day.  I will be buying sugar free jello and sugar free popsicles to get me through, I know that!

I will post again next week once I am on the liquid diet.  Until then...