What doesn't kill me...

What doesn't kill me will make me stronger.

I started my 2 week pre-op liquid diet on Monday the 25th, the first two days were great and then yesterday BAM migraine from hell with nausea.  Let me tell you what, trying to drink those nasty shakes is bad enough when you feel fine but when you have a headache and nausea it is 100 times worse.  It's not that the shakes taste that terrible but when you have to drink 5 of them per day it gets old real fast, especially when you aren't feeling good.  I will muscle through it, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.  Today is day 4 so only 10 more days to go...ha!  My headache feels somewhat better today but that doesn't mean it won't flare up again.  I haven't taken any ibuprofen because I was advised not to because it is a blood thinner and we don't want that for surgery.  I have been taking tylenol which doesn't really touch the headache for me, maybe slightly takes the edge off.  I have imitrex injections that I use for my migraines and I used one yesterday and it helped for a couple of hours and then the headache came back.  I think unless I absolutely have to I am going to hold onto the 3 injections I have here at home for after surgery in case I have a migraine again from the narcotics or whatever.

I never really realized how many food commercials there are on TV or how many damn dessert recipes people pin on pinterest...holy shit!  I miss food and more specifically I miss chewing.  Chewing sugar free jello and sugar free popsicles doesn't really count!  I know it will be quite a while until I get to eat, but man, those food commercials really get me.  I saw someone post something about a peanut butter sandwich on facebook this morning and I thought how good a peanut butter sandwich would taste.  I never ate peanut butter sandwiches in the past, ever...lol!  I think I just miss food.  Honestly, though, I feel strong, I have no desire to cheat and I really don't have physical hunger most of the time, it's more head hunger, something sounds good or I remember how good it tasted in the past.  I will get past this.  I'm not going to cheat.  I'm not going to justify just a taste of this or that.  I am in this for the long haul and I am strong and able to do this!

Now let's get to the weigh in.  I weighed in this morning and I am down 4.2 pounds.  Keep in mind I pretty much ate crap the last half of last week and over last weekend.  Not an all out food binge but some definite high carb meals and sweet treats.  I started my liquid diet Monday so I'm sure that weight came off in the few days I have been on the liquid diet and I'm not surprised, it comes in at about 800 calories per day.  So I am down a total of 17.6# since January and I need to lose a little over 7 more pounds by surgery to hit my goal of going into the hospital at 240#.

One last thing...chicken broth is my friend!  The shakes aren't super sweet but they are  sweet-ish and seeing that is the majority of what I am taking in that one flavor gets overwhelming.  At night when I am sitting on my computer or watching TV I make a big cup of chicken broth and it just hits the spot.  I sip at it and it is hot an salty and makes me feel more like I am having some food.  Just thought I'd share...lol!!

I will post next week or sooner if I have something great to say :)